I'm trying to maintain an observer status of myself. It's very interesting, and a little inconvenient, that I'm experiencing some repulsion toward all the raw hummus I spent 4 days preparing. Same goes for the walnut and veggie dip I made. I just get totally turned off to it as soon as I sit down to eat. I'm doing ok with fruit and nuts, but even salad is just looking really unappetizing. I'm sure it's just a phase that will turn around. Or at least I'm hoping so, because I have 21 more days of this. And I keep reminding myself that I've chosen this.
So what's for dinner?
Well....I have to admit Day 4 was hard. I was hungry and I couldn't find anything to eat that was appealing. I began my day enthusiastically at 6:15 a.m., rushing off to Kettlebell class. Bad move. I mustered every ounce of strength I had to make it through class, but by the end I felt really zapped. Now I realize I was definitely drawing on my reserves, and as a result I felt drained all day.
I'm still totally psyched to be doing this cleanse, which is a good sign. My chickpeas are sprouting finally today. I can't wait to make raw hummus. I've been wanting something hearty like that. It was easier today on the food scene because I had lunch at Body of Santa Fe, which features raw, vegan options on their menu. I had a raw lasagna made with sliced zucchini, spinach, olives, pine nut cheese and tomatoes. It was delicious. I even splurged on the raw chocolate ganache cake for dessert. It was such a delight to have such a beautiful meal prepared by someone else. I've been reading lots of raw recipes lately, and they can be extremely labor intensive. Since someone else was cooking, I decided to go all out.
Woke up at 5:45 am to get to my 6:30 Kettlebell class. I wasn't sure if I'd have the energy for such a high-intensity workout, but I am totally addicted to it so I decided to go ahead and do it. Surprisingly, it was only minorly painful. I definitely did not have the kind of energy I usually do, but it was ok.
I've decided to embark on a 4 week mega-cleanse. It's so hot out anyway that I don't feel like cooking much at all. Even though Ayurveda doesn't advocate a totally raw diet, especially not for us Vata types, I've decided that in the heat of summer it might fly.
When it comes to health and healing, I choose to put myself in situations that push the limits of the rational mind. Growth comes from taking ourselves to the edge of our comfort zone, both mentally and physically. Since I alway get sick when I go to India and Nepal, I'm given a great chance to be the patient and see what works. So when I heard some other travelers talking about going to see the Tibetan sucking lady, I didn't hesitate to tag along.